A Good Self-Slapping

I'm not sure where to begin. It has been one of those days where I have battled with God, fighting the truth; fighting what it was He was trying to teach me, what He wanted me to do. I know that I cannot win, that I will not win. I know that it is pointless to fight, but still I do. In my fleshly arrogance, I think I can win and I believe that I will win. It all boiled down to selfishness. I did not want to do what He wanted me to do. I did not want to view the world; view people through His eyes. I was focused on me, on my comfort. I was focused on my desires and what would please me. Moments of my anger and frustration were directed at the right thing, but not all of it. I could hardly say that even MOST of it was. No, I believe that the majority of my reaction was selfish. I did not stop to consider the others who were being affected by the choices that were making me angry. I did not stop to consider how others would be affected even more greatly. I could not see. Then, when I felt that I had a legitimate, righteous right to be angry, I justified it all and attempted to make myself feel better by rationalization. You know the turning point? God, in His irony. He essentially had me slap myself in the face. I had to correct one of my children about the very same attitude I was exhibiting. As I am correcting him, I am slapping myself. Funny how God works. I realized that I could not even attempt to try and teach him if I was not first willing to accept and embrace it myself.

The world does not revolve around me. I am not that important. I am not the only person in the world. Indeed, I am quite confident that there are people who have bigger problems than me. I am so selfish. I must learn to seek God as my sole passion, my sole delight. By doing so, I will naturally begin to desire the things God desires. I will begin to delight in the things that He delights in. Only in this way, will HE be most glorified.